Here is my list

My best friend told me I should write down what I want in a partner so that I can "create" that in my life and find that person who has what I need. So here goes... my list:

- someone who makes me a priority
- someone who is faithful and monogamous
- someone who thinks about me and lets me know they are
- someone who is taller than me - shallow I know, send your hate mail to idontcare@yahoo.com
- someone smart
- someone funny
- someone who smiles
- someone who can make me laugh
- some who "gets" me, no matter what I might pretend
- someone who is not jealous
- someone who is attractive to me
- someone who is a good kisser (hey I like kissing)
- someone financially secure
- someone who is successful in their life
- someone who doesn't need to have children - but is open to the possibility
- someone who wants to be my partner in life and crime ;)
- someone who is ok with or without the idea of being married
- someone who loves me for me
- someone who makes time for me
- someone who loves intimacy & Sex
- someone who spends time with me AND my friends
- someone affectionate
- someone who communicates
- someone who listens to me and tries to help me through hard times
- someone who will love my cat
- someone who will love my Jessica
- someone who understands the meaning of family and what that entails
- someone who will take care of me when I am sick
- someone who will just plain take care of me (even if I say I don't want it)
- someone who will watch corny movies with me because it makes me happy
- someone who will walk along the beach and stare at the stars
- someone who whispers they love me, just because
- someone who will love giving me small trinkets to see me smile
- someone who smiles with their eyes
- someone whose soul touches mine
- i want my emotional soulmate

I will add to the list as time goes on. I am hoping that by writing them down and I will be that much closer to finding that someone who will be partner

Romance

I wrote a blog on my myspace page talking about me coming out of the closet regarding romance. I have come to realize that it is not as outdated as I had once led myself to believe. It is what make the world go 'round - at least for a little bit.

That stage when you meet someone and your heart thumps, your palms sweat, your stomach churns from knowing they will be there... its all part of that feeling. Of the experience of romance... makes me laugh, but I truly think it is.

Some of us feel it every time we meet someone new... I sadly have not felt it all that often. I am feeling it now and it is a scary experience... but it has also opened me up to realizing that it is something that can add dimension to my character, to me. It can make me more vulnerable, maybe a bit softer ... not so jaded and cynical. So hard and unmoving. It can make me see that all of us deal with emotions differently and that possibly mine can be altered a bit to accommodate the people around me and the person I want in my life.

Romance is made up of so many things; the fluttery feeling, the shyness, the lust, the magnetism, the anxiety, the rush of emotions, the chemistry... they are all those things that make up romance. The flowers, the candlelight, the soft touches, the caresses, the whispered words... the novels are not that far off when they write about it. But there is also the support and the patience, the tolerance, the cooperation, the honesty, the fiedlity, the loyalty and integrity that bind people together... those are also expressions of romance but in a more stable way. They may not excite us but they do show us that the person is there for us... through thick and thin.

Romance is all around us... and we need to breathe it in... and one day it will envelope us and we will be that much richer and better for it.